How is God good if He’s waiting to punish me? I never felt like I had a testimony but after preparing for this confidence series, I realized that I lived most of my life on the basis of this question. I had a distorted view of the goodness of God; I didn’t feel His love. I KNEW He was a loving Father but I didn’t experience it. It was easier to view God as an unruly King sitting on His throne just waiting on the perfect opportunity to judge me. And so when I had a nightmare about Jesus returning and leaving me behind many years ago, that certainly didn’t help! Before I began to see God for who He truly was, I had soooo much fear and anxiety about the rapture and being left behind … since I was a kid!

Christians don’t often talk about this but I’m willing to share because I know this will free somebody! You’re not alone if you wonder why you can’t seem to love God or serve Him the “right” way. I’ll be sharing my REAL salvation story, how I went from seeing God as the punisher to the one who wants my heart, my rapture dream and the film series that scarred me for life (lol), why Christians should not use fear tactics and alllll about how fear-based faith is not a true relationship.

Begin your spiritual journey to true confidence right here! I went from someone who was afraid of the rapture to someone who serves God because of the desire of wanting to love Him more and more. I pray this encourages you, reassures you, and changes your view of God’s goodness, His love and relentless pursuit of your heart.

Timestamps:
01:42 Growing up in a Christian household
03:21 The “first time” I got saved / My Rapture Dream & the Movie that Scarred Me for Life!  
06:42 My view of God: the harsh judge waiting for an opportunity to punish me 
07:58 Hell: It shouldn’t be used for scare tactics nor should we make light of it. It is REAL.
09:50 “Good” doesn’t get you to heaven 
10:08 More reasons why I was fearful as a believer – end times signs (Hollywood, hurricanes, earthquakes etc.)
12:27 The hope I have in Jesus vs desiring more time on earth 
12:57 Will Jesus return? Will the rapture happen in our lifetime?
14:00 My new perspective of God
16:27 I used to think something was wrong with me — you can ask God to give you the desire to love Him more and serve Him better 
17:35 Stop trying to scare people into Christianity! 
18:50 GOD IS GOOD AND HE LOVES YOU // you are not alone 

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  1. PLEASE SHARE! Christians don't often speak on this but I will because I believe it will set you free! YOU'RE NOT ALONE if you wonder why you can't seem to love God or serve Him the "right" way. I'll be sharing my REAL salvation story, how I went from seeing God as the punisher to the one who wants my heart, my rapture dream and the film series that scarred me for life (lol), why Christians should not use fear tactics and alllll about how fear-based faith is not a true relationship. (check timestamps HERE & in description box)

    1:42 Growing up in a Christian household
    3:21 The "first time" I got saved / My Rapture Dream & the Movie that Scarred Me for Life!  
    6:42 My view of God: the harsh judge waiting for an opportunity to punish me 
    7:58 Hell: It shouldn't be used for scare tactics nor should we make light of it. It is REAL.
    9:50 "Good" doesn’t get you to heaven 
    10:08 More reasons why I was fearful as a believer – end times signs (Hollywood, hurricanes, earthquakes etc.)
    12:27 The hope I have in Jesus vs desiring more time on earth. Will Jesus return? Will the rapture happen in our lifetime?
    14:00 My new perspective of God
    16:27 I used to think something was wrong with me — you can ask God to give you the desire to love Him more and serve Him better 
    17:35 Stop trying to scare people into Christianity! 
    18:50 GOD IS GOOD AND HE LOVES YOU // you are not alone

  2. Your problem is not Christianity it’s trying to believe based on others beliefs and experiences. U can’t do that u are doing it all wrong that’s why u feel that way. Look to the source , Christ himself. Look in the Bible for your answers don’t look for other ppls opinions.

  3. The best way I've found to show people that Jesus loves us and to warn people that he's real is to show em the 100% accuracy of prophecy in the bible since Israeli sovereignty in 1948. Here's a list of prophecies occurring in our day that shows how close we are to the rapture. Bible says that when all these things begin to happen more frequently once Israel becomes a nation again, with greater intensity and at the same time worldwide, then the end will come. I have 60+ but only enough room here to post 38.
    1 -Israel—No nation's ever come back to be a nation again after being dispersed throughout the world over a 2000 year period, called the Diaspora and yet were able to remain a distinct people. The Bible says that Israel would come back to be a nation in 1 day. Israel was born literally in 1 day. May 13, 1948 she wasn’t a nation, as the clock struck midnight on May 14th she was. A NATION BORN IN 1 DAY Isaiah66:8.
    2 -Earthquakes: Happening in divers places in the world, 5+ to 6. 0 or higher and growing. Matt24:7, Mark13:8, Luke21:11, Isaiah24:20.
    3 -Massive animal die offs. Use the following link to see the unbelievable numbers of animal deaths occurring around the world. Hosea4:3, Zeph1:2-3."end-times-prophecy.org/animal-deaths-birds-fish-end-times.html"
    4 -Volcanic eruptions increasing around the world: Acts2:19
    5 -Mark of the beast: Cashless society tech—No other time in history could this be possible. Bible speaks of a MARK that the antichrist will cause ALL to receive IN their hand or forehead in order to buy or sell. Even a few decades ago there was no such thing. Possible candidates could be: RFID implants, fingerprint scans, retinal scans, DNA upgrade or testing in some way, facial recognition scans or some type of vaccine. The mark may include within its matrix, recombinant DNA; think what made spiderman and you’ll kind of understand, through a real technology known today as "Crisper CAS 9." Recombinant DNA/RNA can actually alter the recipient at the genetic level and change them into something other than pure human. Those that accept the mark, the Bible says, will not be redeemable; they will have given up even the possibility of being saved and will be guaranteed to go to hell. If someone doesn’t go to heaven in the rapture and they’re left behind to endure the tribulation they can still find salvation by accepting Jesus but not if they take the mark, so by no means, even to the point of death, DO NOT TAKE THE MARK OF THE BEAST, because it will lead to eternal damnation if they do. Rev6:4 Rev13:16, Rev14:9-12. C.O.V.I.D – 19 : = Certificate of Vaccination ID-19, Quantum Dot Tattoo = a way of tracking
    6 -3rd temple in Jerusalem is prophesied to exist once again and all the plans and temple implements are ready when the time is right, and very soon.—Priesthood re-established and high priest has been chosen. Israel hasn’t had a High Priest for 2000 years and now within the last year or so they have appointed one. Rev11:1
    7 -Damascus: This city is the oldest continuously populated city in the world. It has NEVER been without people living in it, EVER, until today. It is prophesied that some day it will become a ruinous heap and cease to be a city. Isaiah17
    8 -Land of Israel will blossom: Today Israel’s a major exporter of fresh produce to Europe and the world. Before Israel was re-united to her land the area was a desolate wasteland. Isaiah27:6, 35:1
    9 -200 million man army of the east: Possible today because of the one child policy and lack of females, due to abortion, so there is a massive glut of single men that join the military. Rev-9:16
    10 -The Euphrates river is drying up and can be dried up quicker with the Aswan Dam to allow the 200 million man eastern army to pass through. Rev16:12
    11 -This gospel will be preached to the whole world: The Bible has been translated into more languages than any other book in history. Only now through the internet, TV, radio, Youtube, Facebook and the like ALL people in the world have access to the Bible. God is preserving and spreading his word to the farthest reaches of this world and then the end will come.
    12 -HOLY LANGUAGE REVIVED IN ISRAEL: Even during Jesus’s day hebrew wasn’t spoken, only the priest's used hebrew for temple rituals. The common tongue of Jesus's day was aramaic. Only now in our day, after Israel became a nation again in 1948 do the jews speak hebrew as their common tongue just like the bible said would happen. Zephaniah3:9
    13 -Unification church:World wide movement which teaches that all roads lead to heaven which is a lie. Only faith in Jesus and his finished work on the cross will save. Rev13
    14 -One world government: The organizations that could facilitate the formation of this one world scenario could come through the auspices of the UN, CFR, Trilateral Commission, Bilderberg Group, Bohemian Grove, IMF, GATT, World Bank, World Council of Churches, WTO, Club of Rome, WHO, Fabian Society, Illuminati and trade unions. Rev13
    15 -Signs in the sun: large solar flares and eclipses Rev16:9
    16 -Signs in the moon: blood mood tetrads and eclipses in history aligning with Israel festivals or moed's in some way. Luke21:25
    17 -Signs in the stars: major fulfillment of “A great sign appeared in heaven: a woman clothed with the sun, with the moon under her feet and a crown of twelve stars on her head.“ This solar alignment never happened before in history until Sept 23, 2017 Rev12:1
    18 -Pestilences in divers places:AIDS, MERS, Zika, Hanta virus, dengue, West Nile, cholera, yellow fever, Ebola, SARS, TB, Polio, Leprosy, Mersa, STD’s, plague, small pox, Malaria, drug-resistant strains of many old diseases, Covid-19, locusts just to name a few. Luke21:11
    19 -Thee entitlement society—Lovers of self generation. Pride
    20 -Seas/waves roaring:Tsunami’s, hurricanes, tornadoes. Matt21:25
    21 -Famines on the increase around the world and even worse during the coming tribulation
    22 -Kingdom against kingdom: hatred of religious people groups or ethnicities or political groups coming against each other.
    23 -The invention of the nuclear bomb. Ezekiel39:15, Rev6:14
    24 -Wars and rumors of wars: North Korea, China, Iran, Russia…
    25 -Fearful sights in the heavens: or what is possibly on its way that NASA isn't telling us about. Planet X system, Nibiru, Nemesis and the ones the bible say will strike the Earth such as Wormwood.
    26 -Gog and MaGog: Russia, Iran and Turkey is a coalition that has never happened before that the bible says will come together in the last days and the bible also says they will come against Israel some day to take a spoil or great booty. Ezekiel38-39
    27 -The Church of Laodicea: We have churches today that are ordaining priests and pastors who live life styles that are contrary to what the bible teaches on marriage, that teach wealth and success are the end game in this life, that support and actually condone abortion, that have services along side muslims calling our God the same as theirs, that call good evil and evil good by supporting a certain political group, that as a platform, are totally against the foundational understanding of what it means to be a believer in Christ and that deny the physical resurrection of Jesus and that he is merely a created being.
    28 -Strong delusion—Evolution: A lie that we are just an accident and not created by a loving God. Psalm139:13-14— Aliens: A possible way that satan plans to explain away the rapture. Everyone’s heard the phrase "beam me up scotty," from the famous Star Trek TV show. Aliens could possibly be used as an excuse to show that christians were beamed away to cleans the world so that a brave new world can be created without God. 2Thess2:11
    29 -The Two state solution: The UN and the Palestinian Authority are trying to divide up the land that God gave to Israel, specifically Jerusalem. The deal of the Century could be the forerunner for just such a scenario that the bible says the Antichrist will one day confirm or make stronger in some way starting off the 7 year tribulation. 1Thess5:3, Joel3:2
    30 -Knowledge increased: Not long ago knowledge would double every 13 months or so and is increasing exponentially. Scientist have said that by 2020 it could easily double every 12 hours, Daniel12:4, Romans1:22​, and yet God calls mans wisdom foolishness. 1Cor3:19, 1Cor1:18, 23-25, 1Cor2:14,
    31 -The attack on the Bible: No other book in history has been more ridiculed and attacked and burned or banned than the Bible, and yet it has the audacity to endure against all odds. If this is truly the words of God to mankind, then men, no matter how hard they try, will ever be able to eradicate it because God will not allow it. Kings and governments and tyrants have tried, to no avail. It will never happen. Matt5:18.
    32 -Calling His people back to Israel: AlIyah is happening at an increased rate like never before because of antisemitism that is on the rise in the US and the world. Ezekiel34:12
    33 -Peace and safety or peace and security:This is the exact mantra you hear that is prophesied in the bible that politicians use today who think they will be the ones to champion a peace deal between the Israelis and the Palestinians. 1Thess5:3
    34 -Sorceries: BIG PHARMA: Latin (pharmacia), from Greek (pharmakeia) "use of drugs, medicines, chemicals in our food and water…preparer of drugs, poisoner…Rev9:21.
    35 -Life is returning to dead sea. Never happened before until very recently. Zechariah14:8. In the last days blessing will return to the sea of Galilee. Isaiah9:1
    36 -The invention of TV and the internet. Rev 1:7, Rev11:9
    37 -Violence and lawlessness will begin to greatly increase parallel to these other signs.
    38 -Israel a strong military power: And I will make her that halted a remnant, and her that was cast far off a strong nation: and the LORD shall reign over them in mount Zion from henceforth, even for ever. Micah 4:7

  4. Same I would see Christian youtubers and like I see that they had joy love peace and the fruits of the spirit and then I look at myself saying why don't I don't have this thinking still to this day that I'm doing something is wrong

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